Monday, January 17, 2011

READY FOR RADIATION

Today, I had a "dry" test run at radiation.  Tomorrow is the real deal.  But, I'm ready...


*Get specific information about my radiation & its side effects - CHECK


*Get all-natural, aluminum-free deodorant - CHECK



*Get prescription moisturizer for radiated skin - CHECK



*Trust in the LORD with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6) - CHECK

IT'S "GO" TIME!

Please pray for the people I will meet during treatment.  Pray for opportunities to share the hope of Jesus Christ with them.  I can't wait to see what God is going to do!

And look who brought dinner tonight....

This is my friend Angela from MOPS, and she brought some delicious chili and cornbread!  THANK YOU ANGELA!!!  It was so good, especially on a cold, rainy night like tonight.

*Interesting how I became a MOPS mentor so I could reach out to other moms, but they are the ones ministering to ME!  Humbling.

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
   neither are your ways My ways,”
   declares the LORD.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
   so are My ways higher than your ways
   and My thoughts than your thoughts.
Isaiah 55:8-9

Loving HIM with all my heart & soul,
Nancy


Thursday, January 13, 2011

THANKFUL THURSDAY (& Friday, & Saturday, & Sunday, & Monday, & Tuesday, & Wednesday...)

I have been sharing with you the many, many thoughtful and delicious things people have blessed me with since I have been diagnosed with breast cancer.  Due to the holidays, 4 family birthdays, and grieving the end of Christmas movies on the Hallmark Channel (just kidding - mostly :), I have been a little slack.  So, I want to share some more with you now - better late than never, right?

 *Disclaimer:  I have taken pictures of everything so I can always remember how gracious God has been to me through YOU.  But, something has happened to the way my camera stores the pictures I take.  The pictures do not come up in chronological order when I view them.  I have tried to correct it, but haven't figured it out yet.  With that being said, I may have overlooked a picture or two.  That is the only reason your gift would not be included on the blog.  BUT I HAVE NOT OVERLOOKED YOU!!!  I have prayed for you and asked God to bless you for your kindness.

This one-of-a-kind bracelet was made by my friend Cindy.  It was the very first pink breast cancer item I received.  THANK YOU CINDY!  I wore it this weekend, and my friend Rene saw it from a distance and thought the ribbons were the Christian fish symbol.  Then she mentioned being fishers of men.  From now on, when I see the breast cancer ribbon, it will remind me to be a fisher of men!!!  Breast cancer is a HUGE ministry opportunity.  So many people with cancer are longing for HOPE.



My friend Shawna Lee actually gave me the shirt off her back out of her closet!  But not before she sent me this very encouraging e-mail after learning I had cancer... "Got up this morning and put my "Fight like a Girl" t-shirt on for you.  We will be praying, sweetie.  GOD is good, ALL the time!!"   She also made me the yellow bracelet.  THANK YOU!!!

One of the most amazing gifts you all have given me is your words of encouragement & prayers.  I have saved every single one of your encouraging e-mails so I can go back and read them any time I need to.  THANK YOU!!!


This book and a few others have been loaned to me by my friend Sally from church.  She is a breast cancer survivor herself and has answered lots of my questions.  THANK YOU SALLY!  You have really helped me.


These 2 gifts (above and below) are from my friend Susan.  When she gave me the "Facing Cancer" cards, she told me to be sure to pass it on when I was finished with it.  There are lots of cards with Scripture on one side and practical encouragement related to cancer on the back.  THANK YOU SUSAN!   **We really enjoy Olive Garden too! 



Also, THANK YOU TO THE LADIES AT MY MOPS TABLE for the Carraba's gift card.  It did not last long!  THANK YOU!



Check out my RAINBOW cup and the pretty bag it came in.  THANK YOU MENDY & SEAN!!!  I use this cup all the time and am reminded of God's presence and promises.  THANK YOU!


This creative gift came from my friend Faye at church.  All 7 of these things were wrapped, and she told me to open one a day for a week.  The reason: so I would know she was thinking of me and praying for me every day.  How thoughtful is that??!!!  THANK YOU FAYE!  *I almost bought a puzzle book for myself at the Dollar Store a few days before I received this one from Faye.  Isn't God amazing??!!!  He cares about everything in our lives, even a puzzle book!


Amen!!!  This is from my sister.  THANK YOU COLE for bringing me more joy!


Here are my friends Angela and Jeannine.  We had a DELICIOUS lunch together at Angela's house, along with lots of laughs.  Spending time with you guys was so much fun!  THANK YOU!!!  And THANK YOU JEANNINE for sending dinner home with me that night too!  And THANK YOU ANGELA in advance for the pedicure!!!


Joy & Hope - I got not 1 but 2 ornaments in the same gift box at our Tuesday Morning Bible Study ornament exchange.  Joy is "my thing" and Hope is "my friend Cindy's thing."  She wasn't able to come that morning, but she still got her ornament!  God is so awesome!!!





YUMMY! What a treat to come home and find this waiting for me along with an uplifting note from my friend Ruth!  THANK YOU RUTH from me AND my family!!!


This is another one of God's unexpected blessings.  I had been craving pears for several days.  I had a jar of home canned pears and couldn't wait to eat them.  I was so excited (I know, it doesn't take much!)  But when I opened the jar, the pears were bad, really bad.  Air had obviously gotten in.  I was sooo disappointed.  Then a day or 2 later, the doorbell rang and look what was delivered...... PEARS along with lots of other goodies!!!  This was from my friend Angie and her family!  THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH!!!  This is how God works through one person to bless another.  WOW!!!   



I'd been wanting a candle that smelled like Christmas.  At Tanner's birthday party, my aunt Robin gave me this.  Guess what it smells like??!!!  CHRISTMAS!  That's my God!  THANK YOU ROBIN! 


Check out this necklace....it was a special surprise from my friend Jacona!!!  The word "LIFE" is imprinted around the tree too.  I love this necklace!  THANK YOU JACONA!!!  THANK YOU!!!


This is our youth group's name & symbol - gotta love the tree!  This weekend, our youth will be having their annual Disciple Now weekend.  About 2 weeks ago, we had a parents' meeting about this event where we completed paperwork and provided payment.  While I was there, my friend Gail looked at me and said she wanted to pay for Tanner.  What??!!!  She insisted.  I cried.  O-V-E-R-W-H-E-L-M-E-D.  THANK YOU GAIL!!!  More than you will ever know.  This is how God works through His children, for His children.  He is AMAZING!


This delicious meal was delivered today by my friend Tracy.  The plan was to freeze it for next week when I start radiation.  However, I started work today (I do bookkeeping during tax season) and was tired.  It's tough using your brain all day!  Anyway, I had planned a meal for dinner but soon discovered I was missing some ingredients. TRACY, YOU SAVED THE DAY!!  THANK YOU!!! WHAT A BLESSING!!!!

I can't thank you all enough - for everything!  You are absolutely wonderful!  I am asking God to blow your minds with His abundant blessings!  Watch out, because He will!

"At the moment I have all I need—and more! I am generously supplied with the gifts you sent me (with Epaphroditus.)  They are a sweet-smelling sacrifice that is acceptable and pleasing to God.  And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from His glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.

Now all glory to God our Father forever and ever! Amen."  Phil. 4:18-20

Loving HIM with all my heart & soul,
Nancy




Monday, January 10, 2011

What a great weekend! What an AMAZING GOD!!!

God really spoke to me this weekend!  

I told my husband that I needed to get away by myself just so I could process everything and figure out what God wants me to do with it all.  So God did this......



HE BROUGHT SNOW!  And snow shuts everything down in the south!  So, instead of starting work today, I am at home.....processing and playing and praying and playing and prioritizing and playing!

It all started Saturday morning when I went to a ladies' breakfast at church.   It was so good to see friends and meet some new ones.  I was completely surprised by this precious gift from my friend Christina...
 She took this picture in her hometown in Indiana and gave it to me because of the trees.  Isn't it beautiful??!!!  (If you look closely, you can see the reflection of the RAINBOW picture hanging on our refrigerator - it's on the right side just above the snow.  GOD JUST MAKES ME SMILE!!!!!) THANK YOU CHRISTINA!  WOW!  This prompted me to share with the ladies at my table how God has been using TREES to teach me lots & lots of lessons over the past year. (Christina, all because you made the extra effort to go back to your car and bring the picture in BEFORE Leslie got started, a whole table of women got to hear about how God has been using trees in my life.  Sooo, when Leslie made several references to trees during her teaching, including Jeremiah 17:7-8, a whole table of women got to witness God speaking through trees FOR THEMSELVES!)  

Leslie Nease, from HIS Radio & Survivor China, was our speaker.  She lives in our community and has spoken at our church a few times.  She loves the Lord and is very open and real.  It was through her that God began to speak and connect so many dots in my life!  I basically cried through her entire teaching (and tried to disguise it hoping it looked like I had major sinus problems! Obviously, my disguise did not work because Leslie came up to me afterwards wanting to know what was going on.......)

Some of the revelations God gave me Saturday morning are what I am pondering on to see how they will take form in my life.  I need a few days before I post about the specifics - mainly because I'm not sure how to put it all into words yet.  This is HUGE for me!

Check out what I saw when I left my house to go to church on Saturday morning.
Yep!  Dead mums on my front porch.  I thought to myself as I drove away, "I REALLY need to do something about that."  My second thought was, "But I don't know what I can put in that planter for the winter."

LOOK AT IT NOW.....



But GOD KNEW!!!  He had a plan all along!!!

My friend Rene gave me this little "New Year's gift" on Saturday at church!  THANK YOU RENE!  I smile every time I see my planter now!  (Thank you for your thoughtfulness Rene! And thank you for being my sounding board Saturday afternoon! Again God is blessing me through you!)

As I was leaving on Saturday, my friend Jamie who was in charge of the event gave me a beautiful vase of flowers that had been used as a table centerpiece.  THANK YOU JAMIE!
As I turned into my subdivision, I sensed the Holy Spirit saying, "Someone in your neighborhood needs these flowers."  So, I started praying and looking at each house as I drove by.  I kept asking, "Who, Lord?  Who needs these flowers today?"  Then, as soon as I parked, I knew. There is a family here, who I have never met personally, who has a son in 4th grade with my daughter, and he has a brain tumor.  I drive by their house and pray for them daily, but I have never met them - until Saturday.

I took the flowers to my neighbor - a very brave but weary mom of 3 who gives her 10 year old son oral chemotherapy every night and drives him to radiation every day.  I cannot imagine what that is like for her as a mom.  What a blessing to meet her and her family - all because Jamie was obedient in giving me a vase of flowers! (So Jamie, how does it feel to be God's instrument AGAIN??!!!) 

What is God calling you to DO? 
I know HE IS CALLING YOU TO DO SOMETHING! 
It may be big or it may be small, but it is SOMETHING! 
Please, please, please DO IT!!!

Then Sunday night, my family and I went to Winter Jam in Uptown Charlotte.

 We took the light rail train and saw several friends from church along the way.


We ate PB&J sandwiches while waiting in line to get in - Dave Ramsey ("Financial Peace") would be so proud!

 
 We found a good seat...


and worshipped our God with Sidewalk Prophets, Red, New Song, Francesca Battistelli, The Dave Crowder Band, Kutless, and The Newsboys.
 Did you notice the TREES on the screen???  This was one of the backdrops for Kutless.  Honestly, I would have paid the price of admission just to hear the Dave Crowder Band sing "How He Loves" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIdvtRcPGBg which is a beautiful song about God's love that mentions being a tree!


We also sponsored a child through http://www.holtinternational.org/.  We will sponsor her until she is adopted.  *She is actually our 2nd sponsored child.  Our first one is through World Vision http://wvi.org/wvi/wviweb.nsf.

***And check out my Bible verse for today..."He who gives to the poor will lack nothing, but he who closes his eyes to them receives many curses."  Proverbs 28:27  WOW!!! God speaks loud and clear!

Then we got back on the light rail train and headed home - CHANGED!!!

Loving HIM with all my heart & soul,
Nancy

 

Friday, January 7, 2011

Look what I found......

when I walked outside to start my van this morning!  

JOY DEFINITELY COMES IN THE MORNING!!! (Psalm 30:5)
(I found out that it was my sister Nicole who brought JOY to me!)
THANKS COLE!

 Then, I went to MOPS and came home with dinner! YUMMY!  
THANK YOU SHERI!!!

"As iron sharpens iron,
      so a friend sharpens a friend."
Proverbs 27:17

Loving HIM with all my heart & soul,
Nancy

Thursday, January 6, 2011

ALL BLUE & TATTOOED!

I went to be "fitted" for radiation today.  The people there are genuinely super duper nice!  I don't know any other way to put it.

Nurse K went over all of the logistics with me and made sure I understood everything, including the risks.  She also made sure I knew that they would be permanently "tattooing" me today to mark where the raditation needs to go.  I asked her if I could get a cross because I wanted my tattoo to mean something.  She grinned and said "FOR GOD'S GLORY!" 

Amen sister!!!

Nurse K is obviously a follower of Christ.  Several years ago, she went on an extended mission trip and ministered to orphans.  God touched her heart during that time, and she fought hard for a few years to adopt her daughter who is now 13!!!  Her God story is very encouraging, especially for those going through the adoption process with another country.  Her advice:  DO NOT GIVE UP!

I actually got 3 tattoos, but I think they are only small dots.  I've also been marked with bright blue lines everywhere.  They assured me that the bright blue was NOT permanent!

As I was leaving, I met another patient.  She was not doing well.  She shared a little of her story with me.  She said that her small cancerous spot was completely removed.  However, a very small spot was found in one of her lymph nodes.  When the surgeon went to remove that cancer, it broke apart into smaller pieces.

As a result, she is having to undergo both radiation and chemotherapy.  She said she just finished her first round of chemo which consisted of 8 straight days of treatment.  She said the side effects were horrible, and she could barely put her feet on the floor.  She has 3 more rounds of chemo left.  Round 2 starts in about 3 weeks.  And she is having radiation AT THE SAME TIME as chemo!!!  I cannot imagine.      

Please pray for her.  She does not want to do chemo anymore.  But she has a 12 year old daughter and knows that she has to do it.  She has beautiful thick blonde hair and knows it will fall out with the next round of chemo.  I do not know her name because our conversation was interrupted when the nurse needed me.  But God does.  So, please pray for her. 

I will officially start radiation on Monday, January 17 and end around March 4 - just in time for my birthday on March 7!  Well actually the 17th will be a test run and the 18th will be the real deal. 

Each treatment only takes about 10 minutes a day.  I'll also have x-rays once a week.  The most common side effects are fatigue and "sunburn."

Lots of you have asked about doing meals for me and my family once I start radiation.  Well, I was thinking it would be a HUGE BLESSING if you could simply share your "easy to freeze" and crockpot recipes with me.  That way, I can prepare a variety of food in advance and not need much energy to put dinner on the table each night.  (Unless of course you sense God wanting you to prepare the food yourself and bring it over, then by all means, please obey Him.)  You can leave your recipe on the comments or e-mail it to me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for all of your prayers, e-mails, cards, phone calls, text messages, smiles, encouragement, etc.  You all mean so much to me!!!

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."  Ephesians 3:20-21 

Loving HIM with all my heart & soul,
Nancy

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

I NEEDED TO BE REMINDED...

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power.
Put on the full armor of God, so that you can
take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood,
but against the rulers, against the authorities,
against the powers of this dark world and
against the spiritual forces of evil
in the heavenly realms.
Therefore put on the full armor of God..." Ephesians 6:10-13

A little spiritual battle broke out on Monday night.  It did not surprise me.  It just frustrated me.  I did not handle it so well either.  In my mind, I knew it was one of the devil's schemes.  But, my mouth chose to ignore that memo and take sides with my emotions.  Not pretty.

God is so gracious and forgiving though.  He loves me in spite of myself.  He loves you too.  NO MATTER WHAT!  We cannot out sin God's forgiveness and love.

In an effort to contain my frustration, I decided to occupy my mind by reading.  I'm in the process of reading the book "Radical" by David Platt, and it was close by so I started with it.  I was only able to focus for a few paragraphs before my thoughts drifted back to the spiritual battle field.  Not to mention that I was also getting tired. 

So, I prayed out loud.  First I asked for forgiveness, and then I asked God to show me how to specifically respond to my situation.  I told Him how tired I was and that I really did not want to deal with the situation anymore at the moment.  So, I asked Him to please let me get some sleep and to show me what to do about my situation IN A DREAM.  *I have never asked Him to do that before.  I'm not even sure where it came from then.  I just heard myself saying those words!* 

I felt compelled to read just a little more until I was ready to actually fall asleep.  And do you know what David Platt began talking about 2 paragraphs later???.....

THE AMERICAN DREAM!!!

"As the American dream goes, we can do anything we set our minds to accomplish.  There is no limit to what we can accomplish when we combine ingenuity, imagination, and innovation with skill and hard work... The American dream prizes what people can accomplish when they believe in themselves and trust in themselves, and we are drawn toward such thinking.

But the Gospel has different priorities.  The Gospel beckons us to die to ourselves and to believe in God and to trust in His power.  In the Gospel, God confronts us with our utter inability to accomplish anything of value apart from Him.

As long as we achieve our desires in our own power, we will always attribute it to our own glory.  While the goal of the American dream is to make much of us, the goal of the Gospel in to make much of God.

In direct contradiction to the American dream, God actually delights in exalting our inability.  He intentionally puts His people in situations where they come face to face with their need for Him.  In the process, He powerfully demonstrates His ability to provide everything His people need in ways they could never have mustered up or imagined.  And in the end, He makes much of His own name." (Radical chapter 3)

Uhhh, I would definitely say that God spoke to me through a "dream" - The American Dream!!!  I was blown away - again!  Basically, God told me to rely soley on Him and His power so He could get the glory. I just need to keep my mouth closed and LET HIM DO THE FIGHTING FOR ME!  "The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."  Exodus 14:14

David Platt, actually starts chapter 3 of Radical with a true story about a new pastor in a foreign country who encountered a serious threat from a witch doctor and how God clearly took care of that situation.  Talk about spiritual warfare!!!

He also talks about Joshua and the Battle of Jericho.  Jericho was the first city the Israelites would need to conquer in the Promised Land.  Remember, God told them to march around the city for seven days.  Then on the 7th time around on the 7th day, the priest played their trumpets and the walls fell down.

About the Battle of Jericho, Platt says, "Don't miss what God is doing.  He was divinely orchestrating the events of His people so that in the end only He could get the glory for what would happen.  But notice carefully what you don't see.  You don't see all the Israelites going up to the trumpet players and telling them what an incredible job they did that day.  No.  Instead you see the people of Israel realizing that only God could have done this.

This is how God works.  He puts His people in positions where they are desperate for His power, and then shows His provision in ways that display His greatness." (Radical chapter 3)

Okay.  Not only did God speak to me through a "dream" while I was wide awake, He also threw the Promised Land in there too.  You see, Sunday was my husband's 40th birthday.  He and I had a conversation about being tired of wandering around (like the Israelites did in the wilderness) for 40 years.  It is time to cross over into the Promised Land! 

I feel like our current spiritual battle is the first thing that needs to be conquered in the Promised Land (just like Jericho.)  God has made it very clear that the battle is His and victory will only come through Him.
 
Isn't our God absolutely amazing??!!!

Loving HIM with all my heart & soul,
Nancy

Sunday, January 2, 2011

I CAME UNGLUED THIS MORNING!

Literally.

The "super glue" covering my stitches/incision came off this morning.  It has been on for a month now, adding an extra layer of protection.  I can DEFINITELY tell it's gone.

During the offering time in worship today, the Lord brought the ungluing back to my mind.  Then He spoke to my spirit.

He told me that He wants me to remove another protective layer from my heart and make myself vulnerable to Him.  He wants me to come unglued for Him!

WOW!

Loving HIM with all my heart & soul,
Nancy